I love my new job. I can't express how incredibly blessed I am to have found a job that 1) I enjoy doing, 2) my boss is awesome, and 3) I'm getting paid WAY more than I thought I would be (total *bonus*).
When I applied for law school, it was honestly on a whim because the job market was so awful at the time I was finishing college and with an English degree there was really no other option but to teach or go back to bar tending. Since I don't like large groups of children and I had already lived through one lifetime's worth of flirting for rent, law school seemed like a pretty good option. And I had pretty great grades, job history, etc. etc. etc.
After being accepted and offered a scholarship, I decided it was probably worth a shot. I'll be entirely honest and tell you that I was 5% excited and 95% terrified, but not for the reason most entering law students are afraid. I was never worried about being called on or grilled about a case or whatever like they show in movies (although I was the first person in my 1L class to be called on in class the first day), I was terrified because I wasn't sure I would even like the study of law, the way law school works, or anything about it. I wasn't one of those people whose dream it has always been to go to law school and become a lawyer. Daddy didn't demand I become a lawyer like him (he's not one anyway). And I never went through something and thought "that is so unjust, I think I'll become a lawyer so I can change the world!" No, I went to law school on a whim, and somehow I fell entirely in love along the way.
People complain way too often that they don't like school, don't like homework, don't like their job, and so forth. I have always believed and stood firm on the ground that if you aren't passionate about what you are doing, you should not be doing it. First of all, life is way too short to waste time or effort on something you have the ability to change, and second, you bring down everyone around you with your crappy attitude. Of course we all have days where we complain or whine or vent to a close friend - that's understandable and part of being human. I'm talking about people who are truly unhappy with where they are in life and yet are completely content to live in such unhappiness.
Which brings me back to my first point. I love my new job. After I started my brilliant love affair with law school, there was always this small fear in the back of my mind that the practice of law would not be anything like law school, and therefore there was still a chance I would be entering a profession that I would be doomed to exit as soon as I entered. After three weeks at my new job as a law clerk for a small Fort Worth firm, I can happily, joyfully even, admit that my love affair is far from over. In fact, I think I can easily see us living happily ever after together.
I was afraid I wouldn't like it, or that I wouldn't be good at it, or that I wouldn't know what I was supposed to be doing. And while I don't know what I am doing in the least, going back to my second point - I have an amazing boss. He is patient and understanding and takes the time to explain everything we are doing in the cases and why we are doing it. He shows me what I am doing wrong without making me feel stupid, along with taking time to tell me what I am doing right. While it is true - law school is nothing like the actual practice of law, I greatly appreciate that the things I have learned and am still learning in class come up multiple times a day at work while I am researching or drafting. It is such a turn on to make those connections and know that what I learn in class today will help me in practice tomorrow, and even the things I find most boring or insignificant will come up in cases in the future. (Which makes me realize I really should be paying close attention to them, regardless of how bored I am by them).
I am sure you are entirely bored by my rambling on and on of how much I love law so I'll close with this: "Whereas the law is passionless, passion must ever sway the heart of man." --Aristotle
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