Sometimes things don't work out

I have put off writing this post, because it is never easy to admit that something you want to work out is not the best thing for you.

I was disqualified last week from being a potential donor for Michelle. Basically, after reviewing all my OBGYN records, the doctors at the donor clinic told me that in order to go forward I would need to be okay with and waive any and all potential pregnancy problems. I would have had to sign something saying I was okay with not having kids, having kids with disabilities, and having multiple miscarriages. This was all because I am already a high-risk for potential pregnancy issues, so donating a kidney would inflate that risk even more.

This was a very difficult decision to make, especially since it wasn't like the doctor said that I was medically unfit to donate - I just wanted something to be medically possible later on and knowing that, I had to withdraw my application as a donor candidate.

While I really struggled through this decision - I am confident in the reality that sometimes things just don't work out - and that's okay. Because even when things don't work out, there is a bigger plan, a bigger picture at work, and there is a reason for everything that happens.